I overshare
I over care
I have too many emotions
To go around
Tears at the drop of a hat
You think it’s just that.
But I know
That from the years of aching numbness
When the only feeling
Present to me
Was the dull thud of my own heart beat
That my body is only just now
Learning how to feel again.
I throw my emotions around
Like sharp bullets
That hit the bulls eye
Everytime
But that’s not the case
Many think I’m smiling and laughing
At their cold, blunt jokes
Always the punch line
Or just a human punching bag
With all the jokes cracked
When I too
On the inside
Am slowly tearing at the seams
It’s a tolerance
As low as that I have for alcohol,
But the numbness is coming back
So soon it won’t be such an inconvenience
For anyone anymore.